One thing that’ll really find myself getting caught on a lot is my style of writing. I always feel like it’s stale and plain. I mean here it’s really not that hard since it’s really just a portion of my inner monologue, so I can just type as I think and usually leave it at that.
But with writing I feel like I’m using the same words all the time or having everyone talk with the same inflection, or like they’re not different enough as characters (though that last part I’ve been doing better with.)
It’s weird to explain, since this isn’t really something I’ve really thought about, but mostly kinda “felt.”
It honestly feels really repetitive. I keep getting stuck when I’m working on getting into that flow that I keep mentioning. I’m at a point where I can kind of hit it if I keep writing long enough, but I’m never writing for long enough. Lab sessions I designate as writing labs aren’t long enough when I’m constantly checking the clock, and when I have 20% time in class it’s especially hard on an iPad since they kind of lag behind when I type fast. Plus recently I’ve been spending most, if not all of my lab time working on late assignments.
I guess the fix is do most of my writing at home when I have at least an hour available, but I really want to do some of my writing at school since it kind of serves as a sort of break between all the math and English assignments. And I’m not going to lie, I can get pretty distracted at home, which is why I’ve also been doing a lot of writing in the library.
But then the library closes at 4, and it’s also where I’ve been catching up on that late work too. I don’t know. If we end up doing this 20% project next semester (which I really kind of hope we do) I can use it as an opportunity to continue and keep working on my book.
I’ve gotten off track. I always feel like I sound so robotic when I write and I’m not like, “in the zone” or whatever. It’s weird. And I can’t think of anything else to write, and this post is past due, so I’m just gonna go ahead and post it.
I never realized how much I missed writing. I don’t know why I ever stopped. I can make these people in my mind do absolutely anything I want. I just made one back-flip across a counter, in fact. It’s not part of the story but I did anyway.
There’s this one book that I’ve reread a few times, Fangirl by Rainbow Rowell, where the main character is a writer as well, and whenever I read it I desperately want to write. Now that I finally am again I’m actually kind of mad at myself for never actually following through with that desire. I’ve definitely found my flow now, no denying it. There’s no stopping this story from happening. I used to worry that I wouldn’t know what to do and get stuck a lot, but almost every word I write leads to a new idea for what should happen next. I remember when I was looking up tips for aspiring writers I learned that this kind of writing was called “pantsing,” which basically is the shortened version of “writing by the seat of your pants.” The alternative to this kind of writing is planned writing where you’ve outlined your story, details ranging from “just enough” to “meticulously cultivated.” While I did do some outlining and planning before the actual writing it really wasn’t that much, especially since I only had about a month to do so whereas most who outline take several months to several years, even.
I really don’t have much else to add this week, since almost everything I had to say was in the blog post I submitted earlier today (which should have been made two weeks ago (thank you Thanksgiving break)), so I think I’ll keep it short n’ sweet and end it here.
I think I finally managed to find a kind of flow. It’s not the greatest and kinda bumpy, if that makes any sense, but it’s still something. Now to face challenge #2: writing around others.
Usually when I write I’m alone in my room, just me and my computer, which makes it pretty easy to focus on writing. But when I write in school I’m always afraid someone’s looking at my screen and reading it, and unless I can find the right lab the environment around me is really loud and distracting. I mean it’s already pretty difficult find just the right way to word each sentence and just the right words to use without having to do it in what feels like the loudest room in the world. I guess music helps sometimes, though, since it definitely works to drown out the sound. But then sometimes the tone of the song will influence the tone of my writing, or make it harder to tap into that “flow” I keep mentioning, or just completely stop the process because I’m too busy singing along to whatever song is playing.
I also worry that when I write I’m spending too much time on writing and not enough on school, but then when I do my school work I worry I’m not writing enough.
I feel like I’m writing too many blog posts based off my worries. I guess something I could mention that isn’t negative is how I kind of found the flow? There really isn’t much to it, though. I just finally found the way to write the scene I wanted to by essentially changing everything about it. I literally ended up with 6 different google docs open to test different ideas and ways to write the scene, and each one I’d get stuck half a page in. Literally just yesterday did I find the magic I’d been searching so desperately for. The characters can finally move and stretch without feeling like its (too) forced, and I’ve managed to move forward into parts I don’t have as much trouble writing. I do however attribute a small part of this to the fact that I just changed the font in google docs to something you’d likely find in a book.
The very last thing I’m going to bring up is how funny I find it when I’m in the middle of writing dialogue and my finger accidentally slips over the caps lock key so SUDDENLY EVERYONE IS SHOUTING.
I really should start turning these in on time. I’m always afraid every Friday I’ll have absolutely nothing to talk about and yet always manage to find something when I write them the Monday or Tuesday or Wednesday or Thursday after it’s due. Plus it’d be nice to see if I’d ever be able to get the “Top Blog” thing.