I think I finally managed to find a kind of flow. It’s not the greatest and kinda bumpy, if that makes any sense, but it’s still something. Now to face challenge #2: writing around others.
Usually when I write I’m alone in my room, just me and my computer, which makes it pretty easy to focus on writing. But when I write in school I’m always afraid someone’s looking at my screen and reading it, and unless I can find the right lab the environment around me is really loud and distracting. I mean it’s already pretty difficult find just the right way to word each sentence and just the right words to use without having to do it in what feels like the loudest room in the world. I guess music helps sometimes, though, since it definitely works to drown out the sound. But then sometimes the tone of the song will influence the tone of my writing, or make it harder to tap into that “flow” I keep mentioning, or just completely stop the process because I’m too busy singing along to whatever song is playing.
I also worry that when I write I’m spending too much time on writing and not enough on school, but then when I do my school work I worry I’m not writing enough.
I feel like I’m writing too many blog posts based off my worries. I guess something I could mention that isn’t negative is how I kind of found the flow? There really isn’t much to it, though. I just finally found the way to write the scene I wanted to by essentially changing everything about it. I literally ended up with 6 different google docs open to test different ideas and ways to write the scene, and each one I’d get stuck half a page in. Literally just yesterday did I find the magic I’d been searching so desperately for. The characters can finally move and stretch without feeling like its (too) forced, and I’ve managed to move forward into parts I don’t have as much trouble writing. I do however attribute a small part of this to the fact that I just changed the font in google docs to something you’d likely find in a book.
The very last thing I’m going to bring up is how funny I find it when I’m in the middle of writing dialogue and my finger accidentally slips over the caps lock key so SUDDENLY EVERYONE IS SHOUTING.
I really should start turning these in on time. I’m always afraid every Friday I’ll have absolutely nothing to talk about and yet always manage to find something when I write them the Monday or Tuesday or Wednesday or Thursday after it’s due. Plus it’d be nice to see if I’d ever be able to get the “Top Blog” thing.